The mind can be a playground if you use it

you could network off the subject for hours. i hate that. i hate being able to and wanting to say so much but not having the time to. i can think of so much to say, you try to put it in the simplest of ways in hope that everyone will see it how you want it to be seen that you end up not saying what you really meant at all. i hate when you come to write, you cant remember what it is you wanted to say, even though some times you may have just thought of it like a second ago. something that may seem minor in the grand scheme of things but it just clicks in your head as a revolutionary thought. this could all mean nothing to others, but its nice to get your what your thinking down on here.
(:

saying that, im known to hold things in, bottle it up. not wanting to bother others with what i fear they could think of as petty problems.
in some respects they could be, and in most cases i like to bottle it up, not because i worry about what people will think, i usually have no problem with what people think of me, just that i find it helps me to keep it in. keeps me sharp, on the edge, where i need to be. its good to keep certain things to yourself, and good to let certain things out. you just have to determine which is which. i think i have.

sending outa space, find another race.

ill take your brains to another dimension, pay close attention.

what is the end of the world? its like that classic question, define beauty. its sure to bring out how people really think and how their mind works.
to me the world is already over. its had its time. its time was up in about 1960s. reason being, everything had been done. we'd been to the moon, apparently, at least into space, the computer was invented, the car had been invented for about 60 years then. theres nothing left to invent, nothing left to discover, that we actually need to. all that happens now is new trends, but even now you see trends of the past coming back in the way we dress the music we listen to. 'vintage', its just old, dated. the fact that its a trend of the present and people dress like that now doesnt mean its new, im guilty, i dress like it some of the time. we just go round in cycles of trends and unfortunately we'v come to an aggressive corner of this cycle. why? were bored. theres nothing left to do, people, are, bored. more and more people are starting to see and realise how things are actually turning out instead of being shadowed by press, media, and what certain people want you to think. this aggression has only been fueled by ourselves.
the past forty years havent been revolutionary, no discoveries, just improvement on what we already had. some could argue unnecessary improvement. technology, we had the computer, its just gotten small and faster, like everything else in technology development. our constant hunger for improvement and development is to be blamed for this aggressive world wide front and for why people arent people any more, merely robots. programmed, so easily influenced. its a shame. blinded by lies, they fail to see what happens in the world.
more people notice problems and talk about them, but yet stil do nothing. right now, i guess im doing the same, but are we beyond recovery? 40years on since my end of the world, is their time to change? if the 1960s were to be the end of the world, then to the greater extent, we are not to blame for it. just natural development and discovery was only to happen, but if the end was still to come and primarily based on global warming as many say, then we are to blame, the reluctant thirst for improvement contributes to that almost 100%.
now, there are words for this, and labels, and the world is all too used to using them, pessimistic? cynical? am i? you can call it allsorts, there are too many labels and stereotypes in call in anything now.
would be interesting to see how different people take whats been said. because people can take things different, how d'you know your getting accross what you really want to say? you never really can untill someone who thinks like you reads it. but for now, its a good way to vent, and is good for the mind.

Worthy of a mention

just been at a friends house, been a good night and to top it off i get stopped by the poilce. i was riding home on my bike as i usually do trucking through town at the usual high rate of knots from jennyfields to wetherby road where i live which is about a 3 mile trip and a traffic patrol police car pulls me over outside my house cos i was riding on the path through town. ive been stopped before but this was just the cherry on the cake as he explained he had first seen me in jennyfields where i set off and has had to follow me from there. basically meaning me on a bike, top speed of about 25mph, against a volvo v70, top speed of about 155mph, yet we both ended up at the finish line at the same time. that just made my night, admittedly i was going some, and faster than usual but my godd! i must have been pushing it!

im not a fan of police at all, they seem incapable of their job in most respects and for a traffic patrol car to waste his time with a kid on his bike, just for riding through town which wasnt particularly busy and not for the fact i had no lights in the dead of night which is a far more dangerous and incriminating offense, but being able to beat a police officer home is just awesome. loved it.

Humans are the worst kind of people

people make me sick. loads of people i know and mostly my friends have all said i dont like many people. thats cos they all suck, my friends say 'i guess were lucky that you like us'. im picky, i know. the ignorance of people and society disgusts me and should others, those that arent simply appalled by the state of things are not people id wish to befriend.

im fed up of how people can be so blinded by appearances and let this and stereotypes infulence any thoughts for things and other people. what happened to 'i got your back' ? you see how we used to be and how we are now, you see how other animals act with each other, help each other out. we are still animals after all. about time we remembered that. i could go on, but ill save you all the frustration.

humans are the worst kind off people.

Strange is only strange 'cause its different

i watched the usual suspects last night, amazing.
so clever.
i felt real sick though, no idea why.
do you ever find yourself staring into space as if waiting for something to happen? boredom drives me crazy, im never bored im always doing something, but yesterday i couldnt actually think of anything. my mind was a void.
oh well, im going on holiday in a couple of days, 2 days infact (:
a week and a bit in america!

dont you hate in when you can think of so much to say and if you dont say or write it right then its gone and you cant remember a thing, it wont come back now for a while. urghh.

No one prays anymore.

music: This is the life - Amy Macdonald
Suite-pee - System of a Down

i woke up real late today. like 1.30pm!
not happy, i got thinking in the shower, that no one prays anymore.
if you look back to old times, not that we were there, but say, old movies, old western movies, families were so close, and being a christian meant you actually were, and you prayed with your kids every night, and said grace before dinner. where is that now?
culture is disappearing.
why did they stop, people have become to arrogant to believe in something?
was it that they no longer got answers? God has seen what we'v done to the world, and its not great, he doesn't approve. people have become too involved in their self development and pride they'v forgotten about who got them there.
does this mean were now on our own?
people change for the worse.
simpler times, are the best.

actually, maybe i left that a bit vague. why do people make blogs? is it in hope of finding someone who cares to listen, the embarrassment of talking to people, the fear of them laughing, does this non-direct way of expressing themselves give people a sense of secruirity? maybe. who would admit this if questioned?

or is that all wrong?

i decided to start this, because of one person. her names nadiah, and shes a pretty person at that. her and i think alike and that made me smile. no idea how often ill post on here.

Whats to come?..

first blog, tbh not sure why i wanted to do this.